Blue

I don’t care about birds
in and out of the shadow
with their round little bodies
jumping between tree branches
I don’t care about squirrels
standing in the middle of the path
watching, listening, chewing
before they suddenly run away
because you are approaching
I don’t care about ducklings
in the pond following their mother
forming a line
learning how to swim
I don’t care about any of the animals
in the local zoo near where I live
deer
wild cat
chicken
donkey
kangaroo
I only care about myself feeling blue
lying on the bed half asleep
taking a walk like I’m on the moon
making a meal not tasting it
doing laundry because I’m running out of underwear
and how the fuck
do I get out of this funk