Sam

Two days ago I hung out with Sam
who is carefree, stable, healthy
who talks a lot
and often repeats himself
I was almost annoyed
except I wasn’t
What unsettled me was something else
I was puzzled
by not knowing how and why
to enjoy a good time
I know by heart how to bond with someone
who is anxious, volatile, mentally ill
It’s so simple:
I just relive my childhood
I can do that in my sleep!
What people call nightmare
But of course that’s no good
What I need to do instead
is to be friends with someone
who is carefree, stable, healthy
who may talk a lot
often repeat themself
with whom I may almost get annoyed
except I wouldn’t